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work and the sustenance for his family, and I robbed from him the
honor and good name. And afterwards, how would I be able to
restore it to him?! He showed me that it was easier to give back
stolen money, because one could give it, and thus repair the sin. But
when you rob the good name of a person, after the calumny is
already propagated, who can render the honor to this person? One
does so much evil to him, in work, or in the relationships with the
other people! Marriages are destroyed! So much evil! So much evil!
And still, I stole from my children the grace to have a mother at
home, a tender mother, sweet, that might have loved them and
accompanied them! Instead& ! The mother away, the children alone,
with the Mom television and Dad computer, and the video
games& And I believed to be the perfect Mom. I left home at 5:00
o clock in the morning and did not come back before 11:00 pm.
In order to satisfy my conscience, then, I would buy for them brand-
name signed things and everything that they wanted.
I was terrified when I saw my mother asking herself where she went
wrong& What was she supposed to do or not do, regarding my
education! She was a holy woman, who gave us and planted in us
the principles according to the Lord; and my father was a good man,
with us. So I said to myself: what will become of me, who does not
do any of this for my children? Chilled, I asked myself: what will
be, when God will judge me in regards to my children? What fright!
What an immense sorrow! I robbed the peace from my children:
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now I see it in the Book of Life. I experienced a great shame! & In
the Book of Life we see everything, all of our life like a film. What
a pain it was to see my children who were saying: Let us hope that
Mom arrives late! Let us hope that there might be a lot of traffic and
she arrives later! Because she is so boring, unpleasant, and when she
arrives she always grumbles and shouts the whole day! What
sadness, brothers! A baby of three years, and the other a little bit
bigger, to say these things! To hope that the mother might not
arrive! I stole from these babies a mother, I robbed from them the
peace that I should have given at home, I did not do in such a way
that they might know God by way of me, and love the neighbor.
But, on the other hand, I could not give what I did not have: I did
not love the neighbor! And if I do not love the neighbor, I do not
even love the Lord. Because God is Love&
Also to lie is to steal. In this I was an expert, you know? Because
Satan became my father. In fact, you can have for father God, or
Satan. If God is Love, and I was hate, who was my father? If God
speaks to me of pardon and of love for those who do evil to me,
while I said that those who do that to me must pay , I was
vindictive, a liar, and if Satan is the father of lies, then who was my
father? Lies are lies, and Satan is the father of this. The sins of the
tongue are terrible! I saw all the evil that I had done with my tongue,
when I criticized, when I derided, when I gave nicknames to
someone. How she felt, that person! How the nickname with which
I derided hurt the person, creating for her tremendous inferiority
complexes, capable of destroying her! For example, I called fat a
person who was fat, making her suffer, and because of this word,
she ended up destroying herself.
I recount this to you better. At 13 years old, I was part of that little
group of girlfriends, to which it was an honor to belong to& a little
group of refined and expert girls. The Lord showed me how this
company of very good girls , spiritually killed a school
companion. There was in class a fat girl, obese. My girlfriends
began to torment her, to make fun of her, calling her with offensive
names, like fat seal, elephant, and others. We made fun of her. I did
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the same, in order not to seem out of step with them. Now, in the
Book of Life, I saw how this poor creature always had more
complexes because of her obesity. She looked at herself in the
mirror, and every time she saw herself as more ugly. So she began
to hate us, and to hate herself; and the more she looked at herself,
the more she hated herself. And hate is death, it is death for the soul.
In the jaws of this desperation, the girl one day drank a bottle of
iodine, to see if she might loose weight! But do you know what
happened? Do you know how she ended up, due to the iodine?
Almost blind! She had a strong intoxication, and remained almost
blind! For this she did not return to school! We did not care to know
about it! We did not see her anymore, and we were not interested in
knowing why!
For this I tell you, brothers, that collective sins are very grave, the
gravest. Because they are our sins, personal! The sin of that girl, was
our sin. The sin of the community is also your sin, because you did
nothing to avoid it! And this is true not only for individual sin, but
also for those of humanity, for which you did nothing so that it
could be avoided.
The power of the word& ! We destroyed that girl, putting on her
nicknames; the devil entered and ruined her, and now she can, in her
turn, destroy others, with her hate, in this way the currents of evil go
forth forming themselves. Where there is hate, there is the evil one.
This is how we assassinated a school companion. We killed her
soul!
Twenty years later& I had a very nice looking cousin; I taught her, I
counseled her how to dress, how to give value to her body, to use
makeup, etc. One day she gravely burned herself, more than 70% of
her body. Only the face was not burned. But it was very grave, she
could have died.
I became infuriated, I became enraged with God; I went into the
chapel of the hospital and said: God, if you exist, prove it to me!
Show me that you exist, save her! Just imagine my pride! Well, my
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cousin survived. But she remained completely burned, with grave
scares. Her hands remained deformed& A sadness. In that period I
was already well off economically, and I took walks with her, at
times in the swimming pool. But when I put her in the water, all the
people left and protested and said: How gross! But why do you
leave home with this creature? She comes to ruin our vacation!
They said this, the people who saw her! People are bad, perverse,
egoists, when they speak like this, seeing the disgrace of others.
Consequently, my cousin began to not want to leave home. She
came to the point of having fear of people! And in the end hated
them! (She cries). The Lord shows, to each of us, when we have
made ridiculous a brother, without a drop of compassion. What right
do you have to cause someone to suffer, to give nicknames, and to
call with offensive names, without knowing what the person is
going through? What right do you have to be so cruel? God will
show you how many people you assassinated with the word only!
You will see the terrible power that the word has, to kill souls.
And yet, if I would go before the Most Blessed Sacrament, to ask
for the grace of atonement for my sins, God would heal the soul of
my cousin. Because ours is a God in love, and to the measure in
which we close the doors of evil, he opens to us the doors of
blessing. When the Lord gave me the examine of the Ten
Commandments, he showed me that I said that I loved and adored
God, by words, but in reality I adored Satan. I criticize everything
and everyone; and everyone pointed with the finger, holy
Gloria !... He showed me when I said that I loved God and
neighbor, but I was false and envious& He showed me how I was
never grateful to my parents, nor did I ever thank them for their
commitment in giving me a profession and to be able to succeed in
life, all the efforts and the sacrifices that they did& All this I did not
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